Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Nameless..

..The feeling in which you can't even pin-point an exact feeling. So heartbroken that you fear it will never go away, the days will be full of reminiscant nostalgia and the overpowering, overwhelming pull towards something or someone that doesnt exist anymore. Wishing, hoping, aching. Remembering.
And so much time is wasted, sold away to this feeling that you cant name, at times you can get lost in it, drowning in the ubiquitous memory, so afraid you may never be the same again.


Whether theyve died, or left you, whether others think this feeling is warranted or not, its there, it exists and it makes your breath a little more shallow and your priorities are lost and forgotten.

But one day, you look at someone else, you make a new friend or someone touches you in a way you couldnt feel before, its more than an action or an obligation, its something you want to do.. and slowly you start to forget those things from before and you realise new memories are being made and for the first time you don't feel bad about forgetting, you aren't scared about letting go. You see a photo, and they are happy, and instead of jealousy or hurt there is something else inside and it makes the ache fade a little.
Time goes on but the feeling doesnt go away completely, it wouldnt be human to dissappear, yet you realise its all part of the process, part of the journey to the end and it all gets a little easier. Loving, fucking, dying, losing, heartbreak, its all just human nature, the birds and the bee's. And the only cure to any of it is time.

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