2007

"I think its funny to be cynical. At times hating on the world seems like the only entertaining thing it has to offer. And sure we've all been shat on, picked on, hated on, we all have reasons to hate life, to feel as though it owes us something... but why bother? If you let all that shit build up inside you, fester into this dark, unappreciating attitude then who wins that round? Definately not you. I listen to people say how they hate so and so or hate work and never want to get a job, never move out of home, spend their time complaining about having no money, yet hating on people that do. I have this solution, and it may sound crazy....but get off your lazy self appreciating ass and do something about it.

The world will never stop for us. It keeps turning and changing and continuing on without us if we are standing still. So why not at least try? We have what, 70/80 odd years here? We'll be too tired and worn out in our 70's to do what we should be doing now. Yet thats always how it goes, hate life up until your death bed and then beg death not to take you because theres so much you havent done. We can only ever get from life what we put into it, We can only take from life what we give it and if we are only giving it apathy and cynicism then we'll be fed shit for the rest of our lives.

And im not saying i want to live in some happy world where everyone gets along and we all work 9-5, and make friends with every person we meet/but if only for ourselves- lighten the fuck up. Noone ever enjoyed anything by moping around and bitching all day long.

For example, (lacking a good one) when steve irwin died. Australians were devasted- and for good reason, the man was an icon. How could you not be sad? Sure he was fucking irritating at times, but it was always comical and he did alot of good work without claiming too many props for it. The majority of people were devasted. Then you had the people who spat negativity onto the whole situation "wahhh who fucking cares he was a wanker, he was annoying, he had so much money, he was a show pony"

The man dedicated his life to environmental conservation and wildlife. He died a pretty fucking horrible death and people claimed to be unaffected. Why? Because it would have been normal to feel something about the situation? because the majority of people felt the loss? and god forbid you be similar to the rest of the world, god forbid You have something in common with the man in the suit walking to work or the mum taking her kids to school. Fucking hell. Get a grip.

Being apathetic and negative does not make you an individual. It makes you depressing and shitty to be around. The effort it takes to be that type of person is far greater than just being happy. People say it is realistic to bethat way, "i'm not cynical, im a realist". Please spare me. I have lived both lives, i have seen life from the eyes of a depressed, angry, apathetic teenager, i spent 20 years of my life living like that, until i realised it takes alot more effort being that person than just relax into what youve got. There is an endless founatin of oppurtunity in this life, We are lucky enough to live in australia where we can do whatever the fuck we want. There is alot of darkness and evil in the world. Kids killing kids, man bombing their fellow man, civil wars are breaking out, where you cant walk down the street without fear of being shot or killed by a fucking machetti. Women cant show their skin, have more than one child or even work to support themselves, Even in the northern territory children are raped daily by their fathers, brothers, uncles. Yet here we sit in the heart of sydney, surrounded by anything you could ever need or want, able to walk around the streets blind drunk in the middle of the day, able to read what we want when we want, buy what we want, live how we want, work for a year an dthen get up and leave to travel the world and yet WE are the ones who are apathetic and dissapointed by life??? To me that is selfish, self involved, disrespectful and above all unnecassary.

I now see how lucky I am to live where i do and have the oppurtunity to work and make money, to live in independence and freedom. I am lucky to know people who are so affected by the deaths of people in the public eye just because they know their face. I am lucky-ecspeccially as a women- to have the chance to work full time, live independently and make money for myself.

All i can say is, pull your head out your ass, look around you, stop being so fucking apathetic and dissapointed otherwise youll be 70 years old wishing you had another chance.

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